Sunday, September 20, 2009
Just sent gansuyi off at the airport. I dunno why... I'm a little sad. Goodbyes just stink... Haha hmmm nvm will see her again! Nothing makes the earth seem so spacious as to have friends at a distance. Ha All the best president scholar and take care!:)
I realized i'd been slacking since Friday!!! Hahas okay... Better start mugging again tmr!!! LOL but what's left is just mcq... Nothing to study!!! Hahas
Sunday, August 16, 2009
ha i haven been posting for a while! too bad! so busy! i shall just post a short one...
happy birthday little fat cousin! hope you like the chocs:) spent sat out with cousins and you:):) i'm happy when i'm out with you:):) ha now i know that simei existed... lol sound so noob! cant blame me, my entire life revolves around bukit timah..... hahas
hmmmmm i'm hesitating about stuff... should i tell you? aiya i will! i hate to hide things inside! it's just me! maybe i express myself too much? i just think you gotta know it. i just wanna hear it from you.... ha see how bah.
i really hope that nipple on my butt will disappear soon!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
hmmmmmmm end of the week! what let's see happened this week.... oh mon to wed, netball fundraising! ate lots of cookies! hahas thurs, woke up early to make breakfast for beloved birthday mum! made 1 for you too! hahas
anw after some advice given by the guys.... i tried to step back, you too... but it feels horrible! i dunno..... i know what you're going through. that's why i didnt say much. just be yourself:) you feel bad too...:( maybe we shouldn't care too much:) i guess i'm becoming a little emotionally attached.
it could be your eyes,
it could be your smile,
it could be the way you fill my mind
i realize i cant stop thinking of you.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
When you came, you were like red wine and honey, and the taste of you burnt my mouth with its sweetness.
i screwed up my CTs!!! i guess that's the outcome of not studying seriously... hai. nvm 6 more weeks to prelims. if i start now... i can still make a difference! ha i hope... i'm kinda afraid. i have not felt this way for quite a while. MUST MUG SERIOUSLY!!!
on a lighter note, tmr's my mum's birthday:) gonna wake up early with little sis to make breakfast for her:) hahas
"Sometimes your nearness takes my breath away; and all the things I want to say can find no voice. Then, in silence, I can only hope my eyes will speak my heart."
Monday, July 6, 2009
post CTs celebration! woooohooo! lol even though i know i will do badly... screw it. hahahas
What i did: (friday) gay party with glen, yuzhi and zhiler at my house... lol played xbox, pool, swam, lan. ha awesome day man! (sat) uncle's bdae at grandma's house. (sun) went to watch taekwondo grading. (mon) tennis date with desmond and glen in the rain!!! let's hope we dont fall ill... hahahas
I just went for my army medical screening! PES B! hahaha cos of my colour blindness! ha and i hate the medical officer man! they poke my arm several times with that freaking needle! find my blood vessel then poke la! WTH man.... ha ECG is so cool man... with so many cups on my chest. oh and i met hinyang! haha kinda miss him man. oh well memories.... primary sch classmate, sji schoolmate. ha sooooooo long....!!!
back to school tmr! lols....hai....
Monday, June 15, 2009
i went for shooting chalet but came back early since i had lots od work to catch up!!! CTs in less than 2 weeks! dead!!! had fun at chalet though:):):)
i had been thinking alot to myself lately... about everything... i think i changed alot:( sometimes i just cant recognise myself! sigh. Did i change for the better or for the worse... i really don't know! i use to be happy all day long but now it's just harder to smile. i am becoming quieter... and thinking alot to myself! omg it's just not me!!! argh... i guess i'm more serious about everything now and sometimes i just wanna be alone:( i'm losing faith and confidence in everything... myself... people around me and everything... sigh.... i'm sorry:( i will just take a step back... I dont want to see you because everytime I do, the fact that you dont see me the way that I see you hurts me even more...
When I Look At You My Heart Skips A Beat But Later That Beat Could Mean A Lifetime Of Tears Wasted On Something I Knew I Could Never Have
Friday, June 12, 2009
ha got another present from my class gals. thanks:) i like the colour:) i will use it:) lol thanks again!
i realise ngee ann library is a pretty good place for mugging! haha
Anw, i'm quite confuse about my feelings... mixed feelings... lol not good nor bad. i dunno. I will just leave things to ___ as i told yuzhi. see la! haha. Nothing else can come into my path now! i'm just gonna study study study! ya right... i'm trying man! but no motivation! i can never ever satisfy my parent's expectations (that's what i think... may not be true) sigh...
oh NUSIS just finished... sorry i didnt go. ha some of you crashed but you guys are still awesome shooters!!! try harder next time:)
looking forward to shooting chalet! but feeling guilty that i'm not mugging for 3 days:(
i wanna see you smile again and i think you will:):):) i think i'm feeling something.... i dunno
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Yay got my present! haha i like the cool ipod skin:) thanks cheryl, qiaowei, SR, ZY, fiona, yikai, zihao:) oh not forgetting the cute towel yuzhi and feli gave me that night:) thanks thanks thanks! i will use it! hahahas:)
Congrats to the new exco! haha it was a really good elections. all the candidates are soooooo good! hard decision! you guys have to grow up alr k! no more little kids! haha SR, ZY, cheryl GROW UP okay! hahahas captains and vice-caps alr!!!
ha dunno what to write alr... lol no time to write too. cya!
i like the scent..... :)
Saturday, June 6, 2009
waiting for my parents...
Thanks everyone for your well wishes:) I had an awesome birthday:):):):) special thanks to ZY, SR, ZH,Yikai, cheryl, feli, Qiaowei, fiona. Really appreciate it. thanks for spending the day with me. haha taught me how to skate! 1st time skating! fell alot though... went home with a wet ass. lols 1st time drinking! vodka's awful:( i dont like the smell and the taste... ewww. lol Qiaowei and SR's faces were super red! ha yuzhi, feli didnt drink much... dun worry:) lol you must thanks me ok. hahahas cheryl got into deep shit with her parents for being late and tipsy. haha sorry man. haha bear with the scoldings. you the man! lols yikai got into a little trouble for going back to hostel VERY late. ha sorry too! THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS AGAIN! HAD ALOT OF FUN:)
ha dinner with sis dad and mum. yummy dinner:) ha thanks daddy and mummy:) love you loads:D i'm 18!!! big boy alr:) you wished me:):)
Monday, May 25, 2009
oh man. another emo post:( i'm really really down these few days... lots of things are happening at the same time... i cant take anymore of it:(
i'm letting go though it really hurts. tell me how am i really gonna forget if you're never gone? why are you the person that makes my heart break and at the same time makes it beat faster? let's just leave everything else to after A's when everything's less uptight. I dun want this to affect either one of us. If it's meant to be, it will be. I can always wait... i shall bury myself in work now and nothing else matters now. Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do.
The lump in my throat is growing and growing but i wanna swallow it and be strong. It feels really awful. I wanna scream out loud but nothing seem to come out. ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
"Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing."
Anyway, thanks cheryl for talking to me for quite a while that night:) really appreciate it:) thanks ZY, SR, qiao wei too:)
Oh to my awesome little sis: thanks a million, trillion... for your thoughtful birthday gift:) although it's a little early. haha thanks for the wallet and belt:) you knew i lost my wallet and got me a new one the following day. ha how sweet:) really touched. thanks:)
Friday, May 22, 2009
Life sux man!!! especially these few days! argh... i'm so vulgar today that i totally dun recognise myself! shit man. I lost my damn wallet! and it's not like i dropped it or due to my carelessness... i was standing on the bus for the whole journey and it's impossible that it dropped out from my back pocket. I must have been pickpocketed! argh... the bus was super crowded! i'm really pissed off! lost at least 300 bucks! DAMN it! argh. FML!
let's just hope i will get my wallet back... that person may take the cash. i dun care... just give me back my wallet and my cards! argh!
anw glad that i had friends who were there for me:) thanks ZY, SR, cheryl, fiona, tingsoon, glen and the rest la. thanks a million:) ha had to bear with my scoldings.... lol
I just found out that you are really an ass after what qiao wei told me today. You barely know me and you can say those nasty things. You can screw off man. argh. i dunno what are your intentions. ha thanks qiaowei:)
okokok i must cool down!!! argh. okok for every minute i remain angry, i give up sixty seconds of peace of mind. cool down:) sigh:(
Thursday, May 21, 2009
i'm suppose to be studying for tmr's econs case study test.... whatever, studied alr.
Today's not the best day:( heard something that set me thinking for the whole afternoon. screw it! it just doesnt make sense! How long do you know me to make such a comment! You barely had a chance to talk to me and you're in no position to say anything! WTH! and if you have anything to say, just tell me straight in my face! something that i REALLY HATE will be to have something done behind my back! Be a man! argh i dun care....
I'm pretty sure you didnt say that... you wun do it. it's just not you.
Anw, spent my afternoon in the range, i wanted to mug but instead played cards, frisbee and basketball. ha i lost to cheryl in basketball!!! ha she's just lucky.... then Qiao, feli, ZY and the rest went for a movie and then i just went home with yuzhi to mug. lol sad life. Oh saw glen and his "friend" walking out tgt!!! tsktsk. lols
Sometimes I wonder if life is really worth it, then I look at your smile and I know it is.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
NJ's college day is kinda pathetic... so little people. haha 40 years only. SJI's history is close to 160 years!!! we own NJ man. noob. hahas oh there's an article on ST which talks about SJI and NJ. haha "2 iconic schools" wow. i'm in both schs. My duty's traffic control, directing cars... quite dumb! super boring! to kill time, i played cards with Zhiler but that became boring too!
Talked to jerone for a while and we shared our views on relationships! haha cool man. it's jerone!!! i realize there's only a few things i look for in my other half:
1) nice character and personality
2) well brought up
3) capable
4) thoughtful, caring.....
5) then looks....
and till now, there's only 1 person who possess all these qualities:) oh wells....
" We come to love not by finding a perfect person,but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly."
Sunday, May 10, 2009
happy mother's day:) ha started my day by waking up earlier to take a bus to bishan for my gp workshop. My dad will usually give me a lift but he's lazy today... i alighted 1 stop earlier and was lost... to make it worse, it was raining... late:( the lecturer went through lots of essays again... oh then i saw shujen in the other class:) which i will be joining with my cousin next week. Chatted with Mr Gilbert Lee during break:) anw, 2 weekends at this workshop and i didnt speak to any of the ppl in the class except with 1 njcian! omg i'm so anti-social! ha maybe i'm perceived as a very dao person... hahahas sitting alone in a corner... so not me... lols
played pool with my cousin and her "friend"...
nothing else to talk about...
cya. tmr's a sch holiday! yay:) mug mug mug....
Friday, May 8, 2009
Horrible week!!! sux man. totally no life:( mug mug mug and more mugging.... physics, math, 2 gp tests.... i'm glad everything's over. ha today's suppose to be swimming, tennis and pool at my house with my class but instead we went to play lan and then i left for tuition:( swim next week then. i swam quite alot this week:) i hope i turned darker.
oh only mon(half day) and fri were fun. the other days were like sch and then mugging at home... sianzzz. MON: i went out with cheryl, mark, andy, fiona, ZY, SR:) ate lunch at marina and then bowled. Captain Mark is really good!!! andy left fiona left. only pistol boys were still bowling... oh cheryl was with us too. ha cheryl's a pistol BOY!!!
SAT: had to attend this GP workshop from 10am to 6pm!!! super long... sianzzz but it's to get good grades:) no complains. ha cheryl, thanks for entertaining me:) lol oh i met my sji classmate! Bryden yong! it's been loooooooooooong time... oh well. memories:)
tired....
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
My nose and throat is killing me!!! everyone's sick! it was just yesterday that i'm concern about my friend's health and today i'm sick.... AHHHHH i dun like to be sick!
oh today's our 1st cip session at some childcare centre at bukit batok! we were there to teach LITTLE kids to read! haha they're really LITTLE! But they're soooooooo cute! lol. i got this kid who's SUPER DAO! didnt even wanna talk! tried all kinds of methods.... introducing myself... offering sweets... magic... talk to her... NO RESPONSE AT ALL!!! ha then Glen tried too. Same thing... NO RESPONSE! haha then the teacher said that little gal is very quiet. hahas. then i taught another little kid. she's sharon! ha she's the total opposite! she sooooooooo talkative! it's like she can tell me her whole life story( not like it's very long... lol she's only like 4 or 5 years old...). ha so many funny things happened! yenpeng and ailing asked the little boys whether they're pretty! and the boy's answer was NO! hahaha so direct and honest! lol kidding... and yuzhi's a paedophile! haha feli watch out! lol
oh man forgot to eat my medicine! bye!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Friday
Today’s soccer match was ): oh man… they lost to NYJC. Dun be disheartened k! you boys are still awesome soccer players! The table tennis team too! Jiayou!
Went to PS with pistol boys and ate café cartel! Talked talked talked and more talking... (: we had a good time though(: hehe love my pistol boys man
You are feeling down…hope you get back in the swing of things real soon(:
Ha tmr’s my cousin’s birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! And today her classmates planned a surprise party for her and I gotta go out o bring them in… ha then they invited me to eat the cake with them. So weird… I dun really know them… only know my cousins.
Oh man… you’re not well and injured): you mean a lot to me…and so does your health and happiness. So here’s a wish to say “ Get well soon!” and take good care of yourself(:
May the little flowers lying in gloom,
Rise and bloom, swaying endlessly,
This way and that way,
Morning to dusk everyday, Get well soon(:
Thursday, April 16, 2009
ha today's kinda great:) played basketball with the shooters:) only the gals can score so we guys will just catch the ball... but it's really fun:) full of laughter and smiles:D my team scored the most:) woooohooo. Qiao wei's the top scorer. feli and shujen scored too:) yay:)
On the darker side... a few friends are emoing....:( 3 troubled souls... sigh. 1st it was zhongyi then yikai then cheryl.... oh man:(:(:( smile ppl:D stay positive:) you'll always have friends like us around! tmr we go for dinner k:)
choices are hard to make... decisions even harder... sigh.... oh wells this is life!!!
i dunno what else to write... haha such a short post... lol
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
oh man, i thought shooting nationals began well with our rifle boys sweeping all the medals! individual gold, silver, bronze and obviously team gold! OMG!
but oh wells.... it's just isnt the right day for pistol boys:( it's not an april fools trick.... but we are 6th... ahhhhhhhhhhh. SHIT man. i feel really really really bad:( i can still feel the sadness and disappointment my bros are facing man. sigh....there are moments when i feel so lost, speechless and on the verge of crying.... sigh.... but i think we are stong man! it's ok... we'll let the other schs win since we owned them yesterday... i really hope mark and zhongyi is ok. no matter what, they are still my awesome team mates and dun give up man! i hope my sms cheered them up:) oh well... but shergrui did well:) proud of him man! shot his pb! all the way shengrui! haha
i dunno why i'm feeling this way... but i dun feel the bonding within my own class! it's like... we are just tgt to study.... why dun i have the same closeness i'm having with my shooters????? it's like i can lament everything to my shooters and talk about everything under the sun:) i love my shooters man. Why is this happening to me! why cant we be back to the times when i had really great times with my class???? i'm really lost.... maybe it's just my fault, i'm not spending enough time with my class:( all we do tgt is mug mug mug.... when was the last time when we actually sit down and talk.... but i'm ok with my class guys. if i spend more time with the rest of my class... then the guys will say lots of stuffs... sigh... i kinda give up... i will live this life...accept it...although it's really hurting me:( i really dun wan this to be happening.... i wish you ppl understand:(
tmr's pistol gals!!! yay! i'm pretty sure they will do well! all the best shujen, xinhang, sam and dili! i have faith in you ppl:) sweep all the medals! give them your best shot and no matter what, we will always be behind you! jiayous:)
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Wednesday went to Cdans to train for our competition. Mark asked me to shoot an internal and i just took it normally. and i SHOT PRETTY WELL:) shot my PB!!! 529:) not that good... but an improvement:) yay:) haha why cant i shoot like that during competitions...??? sigh. Mark chatted with me for quite a while and discussed my problems. i'm just stressing myself up during competitions!!! when i shoot a bad shot, i'll force myself to shoot a 10 to compensate. and i CAN'T be thinking that way!!! sure screw up! and i must not be affect by my surroundings! ok lessons learnt:) Thursday ha mark asked me to shoot another internals and this will determine whether i'm shooting nationals!!! OMG! stress! but i took it normally and shot 511. sigh... maybe i'm just tired. Today competition at Cdans today. tried to take it normally but there's still alittle stress. aiya but i think i took it normally too la. haha but the place is super cold!!! my trigger finger was like numb! cant feel it sometimes. Trigger freeze!!! ha shot some bad shots but didnt care and just treated every shot seriously. ha but still screwed up. Shengrui also had trigger freeze but mark did pretty well:) yay:) i think our team achieved 2nd. wow i thought we will lose.... haha not bad:) oh akshay did well. xinhang too:) shujen did pretty well too:) haha congrats:) jiayous everyone:D now talking about the some stuff that happened... aiya some ppl just suggggggs man. causing so much confusion for ppl who are not even involved!!! omg!!! heck la. my conscience are clear and ha cheryl, just dun care about it la. it doesnt involve you. you're just dragged into it. ha both of us are innocent la!!! this whole thing is just dumb... now i know how you felt that day. sigh. sian man. ha dun care la. dun kill your brain cells for nothing... :) dun think too much. why cant life be simple???
Friday, February 27, 2009
ha crashed....sigh:( i guess i'm just not used to competition....aiya 493... i let my team down man. they shot well:) great job mark and shengrui:) i cant believe i dropped from a 89 series to a 67... WTH!!! misfired 2 shots!!! 1 zero and a 2!!! well it's not the end... must have faith:) ha yikai keep it up too:) jeremy and zihao jiayou:) oh dili did very well! congrats! xinhang and sam shot well too. daniel shot his personal best. congrats. ha cheryl hit 367! haha happy eh. those who didnt do as well, jiayous! dun give up! andy and feli dun be too sad, dun be disappointed shujen. i believe you can shoot well:) dun pressurize yourself too much. jeremy! you can shoot well if you want to!!! zihao, train more!!!
Anw must train!!! nationals in 1 month cdans in 2 weeks! train train train!!!
Saturday, February 21, 2009
100 truths
Last beverage → water!
Last phone call →mummy:)
Last text message → shengrui!
Last song you listened to → a little too over you
Last time you cried → a few weeks ago (really upset) but i'm happy now:)
HAVE YOU EVER:
Dated someone twice →nope
Been cheated on → yea i think so...., my best friend. and i really hate that:(
Kissed someone & regretted it →nope
IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:
Fallen out of love → er dunno....
Laughed until you cried → er i forgot... lol
Met someone who changed your life → yups:)
How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?→ of course all of them right?....
How many kids do you want to have → must ask my future wife too. lol but i love kids:)
Do you have any pets → i want a dog!!!
Do you want to change your name → nopes
What time did you wake up today → usual time 7 plus...
What were you doing at midnight last night → sleeping
Name something you cannot wait for → wah alot of things you know....
Last time you saw your father→ this morning:D
What's one thing you wish you could change → er.... nothing? haven thought of any... hahas
Have you ever talked to a person named Tom →should be...
What's getting on your nerves right now → i kinda dislike the taxing workload now.....sigh...
What's your real name → Gan Jit Sheng!!!
Elementary/Primary School → Nan Hua Primary sch
Secondary School → St. Joseph's Intitution:D
Tertiary School → National Junior College
Hair color → Black
Long or short → short!!!
Are you a health freak →Maybe sometimes
Righty or lefty → righty
FIRSTS :
First surgery → baby? lol i dunno...
First piercing →i'm a guy!!! no piercings....
First best friend →i think it's junyang in pri sch:D
First sport you joined → tennis
First pet →fish
First vacation →australia
CURRENTLY :
Eating → nothing
Drinking → nothing
Waiting → for my sis to be out of my toilet!!!!
YOUR FUTURE :
Want kids? → of course! i love kids:)
Want to get married?→ of course!!! :) :D
Careers in mind? → Doctor, Lawyer, entreprenuer. NEVER engineer!!!! (both my parents are engineers.... aiya...)
HAVE YOU EVER :
Kissed a stranger →NO.
Drank hard liquor → no
Lost glasses/contacts →Yes! lol
Ran away from home → NO
Broken someone's heart → i dun think so :D
Been arrested → Nope
Cried when someone died → ya of course! lol
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
Yourself → always:)
Miracles → sometimes
Love at first sight →nah... i need to know the gal first.
Heaven → maybe
Santa Clause → haha yes
Kiss on the first date→ er depends...
Angels → i've met one! lol she'd fallen from heaven!!! lol kidding... hahas
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :
Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yups (:
Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → ha NO! haven been in a relationship... lol
Do you believe in God? → sometimes
Sunday, February 15, 2009
ha yesterday's valentines:) ha met someone on the bus. He/she is the person i never thought i'll meet on valentines!!! stop saying it's fate! but it's not just coincidence. FULL STOP. lol ha met tingsoon, shanise, raja, yihfang, nick to accompany someone for the day cos he/she needs our company:) ha played cards as usual. we wanted to watch a movie...but FULL!!! expected... everywhere's FULL!!! so just spent the day talking and playing cards:) anw happy birthday grandpa! really sorry sorry sorry i couldnt be there.
today's nyt monthly. ha couldnt use our guns.... so results not that good for me. i dun like the trigger... the trigger's length is too long...not use to it. lots of misfires... oh well... at least i didnt make any major mistakes.
jiayou! must train more!
Friday, February 13, 2009
ha today's vday eve... lol when i arrive in sch, lennon was the first to give me a heart! haha so sweet. collected the roses for my class and gave the gals in my class a rose each. haha the other guys also prepared stuffs haha so sweet. lennon and glen packed candies. tingsoon wrote stuffs on poker cards. haha the gals also prepared candies, chocs and little cards:)
the climax today was went i went to collect my bouquet of roses. omg man! It's toooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pretty! tooooooooooooooooooooo beautiful!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. when i went to the flower shop after sch with ZL, we both thought that it's really really too nice. lol. yuzhi and i went to order our bouquet last week and we just told the aunty to prepare 3 roses and do it nicely. haha didnt expect it to be sooooooooooooooo nice. haha but cheryl said that it's better to be too nice than too ugly right? haha. then went we went back to sch, i'm like trying to avoid ppl and hiding the bouquet behind my back. lol then hid it in the range before doing my internals. haha shot 513:(
after internals, plucked up my courage and gave her the bouquet. haha i kinda thought she will get the wrong idea. lol but she's really really nice, thoughtful, caring... really sweet gal. haha. the gals were there la.... felt so shy.... lol oh well.....aiyo i'm worried.....
Thursday, February 12, 2009
went to sch late today and got booked! hahas
ha today's pretty good:) i hit a 93 series with an eight and a seven! hahaha 2 nines 6 tens!!! woooooohooooo. nationals have hope alr:) yay!!! ha and saw ailin today! haha she looked different...more feminine. haha but still love to play basketball...
quite a number of J1s came down to tryout and when this bunch of gals came, nobody entertained them. so i just went there to ask whether they wanna try rifle or pistol... then feli had to say i'm flirting wif them... omg!!! argh angry! lol must ask someone to scold her.... hahahas at least feli congratulated me for my nice scores:) so forgiven. hahas.
ha range closes at 6:( so early:( ha cheryl wanted to shoot pistol but only shot 1 shot. hahas then played cards wif cheryl, SR and yikai. ha cheryl's so bad to SR today!!! super bad. lol kept attacking SR wif her words. lol SR's GAY! lol hahahas. ha i won 5 hearts! yay :) played till 7 and then feli, fiona and dili came back and then we left...
haha tmr's vday eve:) !!!
Monday, February 9, 2009
ha i dun know what's this feeling... ha well it isnt bad or good. haha dunno.
it was a pretty good week:) ha i realize that i have really nice friends and i know i always do:) haha lol. giggles is happy again:)
thanks again ppl:) appreciate everything:)
just some random stuff... haha i think you suggsss! lol dun try to guess who issit. lol lime green is gorgeous, maroon is pretty and purple is beautiful. lol i'm just bored.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
nothing went right today. I dun wanna talk about it:( today just suck to the core. I received so many blows today and everything just falls apart. I’m just not in the mood today. I just shut myself up and it feels horrible:( it’s hard to smile now and I dun wanna fake a smile. It’s not the usual me anymore. I hope it wun carry on for the next few days and I’ll be Mr. giggles again. But issit too much a promise to be made?... sigh. I feel like letting it go. I really hope I’m wrong about you. And why can’t you be truthful? The only thing I really hate will be betrayals, cheatings and just doing things behind my back. I trusted you and value everything…. Sigh. I may be in the wrong too. But I really dun know why?
My bad mood carried on into my competition and I just totally screwed up. How could I forget to load a shot and fired a blank! How could I forget that I loaded a shot and loaded another! Double shot and didn’t leave the next card blank! Penalties… argh. Omg my mind just wasn’t there at the firing lane. It’s impossible to make those mistakes. I tried to clear my mind and settle my emotions but these mistakes happened during my first few shots and everything just fell apart. I kinda dun care and shot finish everything in such a short time. Fired shots when i’m not even aiming! It’s just not the best day for a competition. Results came out I didn’t even wanna look. Ha but I’m surprised that I didn’t hit my lowest record! Haha. Well I think emotions can really affect me and this is not gonna happen at the rest of my competitions. I must learn to be emotionally independent:)
The only thing that I’m happy about will be that I have such awesome friends:) I love the shooters man, thanks everyone. I really appreciate it:) you ppl were there when I needed someone to talk to, when I needed encouragement, when I needed the uplift in spirits. Ha when we did the cca carnival video yesterday, and andy asked “what is the 1 thing you love most about the NJC shooting club?”, I said “ the people”. It’s really true! They are really the best people around! They are the ones whom I can fall back on when I’m down:)
I love my sji friends too man:) thanks dudes:)
Friday, January 23, 2009
ha today's so slack! went to sch for CNY celebration then NJIS meeting then lan with the shooters then tennis date with desmond. haha today's so fun:)
ha i'm the logistic head for NJIS! Dili is the other head and we must find cards... medals.... challenge trophy... haha if there are meetings, her friend and my friend can join us too:) you should know which 2!!! hahahaha lol
played lan with the guys and jeremy had to meet his gf....he was with us on the bus, but....his gf called... aiya what to do...he wanted to play but gf la....tsktsk... oh met alex at the lan shop too! haha he played left 4 dead with us:)
had my 1 on 1 tennis date with desmond! haha so gay....whatever... i was sooooooo careless that i hit my own finger with the racket!!! PAIN!!!
shagged....slping time! nites:)
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Argh crashed....shot 505!!! that's only an average of 8.5! i'm so angry with myself! well....it's not that unexpected. i'm ill and my hands are shaking quite abit today. i made a few mistakes here and there too... i was too eager to shoot my personal best and ended up screwing it up. well....sigh.
lessons learnt:
1) always stay calm, especially after a bad shot
2) never be impatient during shooting
3) Follow through!!!
4) Don't be overconfident
5) never shoot when you're ill
nothing else will bother me except nationals and studies!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
morning pt was crazy!!! ran like 8 rounds then ran during pe again... i ran more than 10 rounds today!!!
attended my piano teacher's concert:) full house!!! but i was allowed to enter as i am his student:) i didnt need to pay too! haha. he a really good concert pianist:) Victor Khor, an international concert pianist who studied with many great pianists of the Russian School like Tatania Nikolaeva, Ryszard Bakst and Evgeni Malinin, was the first Singaporean pianist to enter Moscow State Conservatory in 1989 - hailed as a world-renowned school of piano playing. Sounds so great! haha and he's my teacher:) the famous little singapore gal Abigail is also his student!
tmr's the best day of the week! so slack! haha it's finally the end of the week:)
i hope things are much better and normal now:) i'm really tired....you and me gotta start forgetting stuffs...
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